Monday, August 8, 2011

Ending the summer on a good note :)

I only have 20 minutes to post before my friend Sam comes to pick me up for our 'hang-out date' later, but I just wanted to update my blog and let everyone know how great I am doing :)

Umm.. there are several different facets of my life I'd like to bring up..

Running- Things have been going okay.. My long run on Saturday (15 miles) was pretty killer, but that's just cuz I'm dumb and went out way too fast to be able to hold that pace for an hour and 45 minutes.
I don't know how fast I really went, but I'd say I averaged sub 6:40 cuz last week I ran with Tiffany at Boardtown runners (the group in Starkville), and she said that she averaged 6:39 for our 15.2 mile route. I finished a little faster than her.
This past Saturday's run was harder and definitely a faster pace, so that's good I guess?!

I haven't hit my mileage the past two weeks, and it's very frustrating :/ It's just so hot, and the two-a-days are hard to do sometimes when I don't want to run til 10 P.M. and then I'm either too tired or whatever to do it.. Anyway, I'm definitely going to do it this week, though! No excuses :) 75 miles, here I come.

I do think that I would be a little quicker/fitter/better with less weight, but I guess it will fall off as the season progresses.. That does bring me to the issue of eating :P

Eating-Things have been really good for the most part :) I have been eating intuitively, what I want, when I want.
I did meet with my dietician/nutritionist Kelly last Wednesday before I left. We came up with a meal plan  just to make sure I'm getting enough food in me to fuel for all of my mileage without underdoing it some days and then binging on others. I'm tired of that cycle.

I will admit that I had one slip-up.. a binge. :/ I had been restrictive and thought I could cheat Kelly's plan by cutting 700? calories? False. I should know better!

I haven't actually been logging my food intake like Kelly wants just cuz I've been so busy with other stuff, but I will get on that starting today..
I do know, though, that I am doing a good job of fueling my body. I did a 7 mile run on the treadmill this morning (I was too tired, so I slept in), and I averaged 6:40 pace feeling like I could go forever.
Love it :)

Mom- I went to the Y with my mom the other day. I ran 12 miles on the treadmill while she walked 4.. I really enjoyed the time with her..
Some people think that I need to have more space than I do with my mom, that I should just let her go..
But Idk, it's so hard to lose someone that you love so much.
I went my whole life without a mom, and now that I finally have one, I don't want to let her go.
I know how hard it is to have an addiction.. I also know that it can be overcome. And I have faith that my mom can do it.
Whether she does it anytime soon, I don't know. But I am praying that she does.

Connor- Read this post: "Mushy Gushy Love", and then tell me that I do not have the best boyfriend in the world.
I am spoiled.
I love him to the world and back.
I can't imagine my life without him, and luckily I will never have to.
I could go on and on about how Connor is one of the best things that has ever happened to me, but Sam is here, and I would probably gross you all out with my cheesiness, anyway ;)

Okay, I also wanted to talk about my relationship with God, but I guess I will post about that later tonight or tomorrow :/ It deserves it's own post, anyway.
I hope everyone is having a great week so far, and I am so excited that I am going back to Starkville on Thursday!!
I came home for the week since summer school ended. Straight A's, btw :)

So much love!!
<3 Haley


  1. Good job seeing your nutritionist this week. You need to make sure you're getting enough for all of that running, girl! I can't imagine 15 miles at once!
    You seem very aware of your eating disorder and the decisions that you make vs. the decisions that ed makes in your life. This is so good. It really is a sign of your strength. You can make it through this, I know you can. Keep fighting :)

  2. SO GOOD to hear from oyou!! im off to read that post!... and im so proud o fyou!

  3. Conrad seems like such an awesome guy :). I loved his blog post about you!

    I'm glad things are going well and you're seeing the nutritionist... really important with all the running and XC season coming up, you need to be at your best :).


  4. AWWWW that is so so so sweet about you and Conrad!! I just read his post (but didn't comment cos he doesn't know me and would probably think it a little creepy! :P)

    And that sounds like an AMAZING run!! Wowzers so freakin' fast!! And CONGRATS on your straight A's!! Seriously, can I be you?! ;)

    P.S. DON'T let go of your Mom! I didn't let go of my Dad through his alcoholism and even though he had relapses which were so painful for me to take, he has now been totally free for years! So BELIEVE :)

    LOVE YOU <3

  5. You are doing amazing things angel and it is wonderful.
    How the hell you run so much I have no idea ;)
    And it is okay to be too tired to run.
    Recovering itself is exhausting.
    Mwahhh xoxo

  6. I am so glad to hear from you and to know you are doing well :)

    And you are a running machine! Don't worry about not meeting your mileage, conditions and life get in the way, and that's okay! Don't worry about it :)

  7. I was so happy to see the title of this post. Sometimes I get a little nervous when I click on your blog in my google know, I always want your post to be puppies and rainbows! Not always, of course -- that's not realistic for anyone. But I am happy to see you so happy!

    FYI, most people consider me a pretty fast runner for running a half marathon (13.1 miles of course) at a 6:45 pace. just blew that away, and then some, on a training run. just ridiculous. I can't figure out how your legs move so fast.

    Last, it is a little concerning that you still believe you need to lose weight and expect that you will when training picks up. You are such a killer runner -- if you can just throw out 15 miles at a sub-6:40 pace, trust me, your weight is not holding you back. Your weight is probably 100% muscle, and is helping. Trust that your incredible performance is benefiting from the way your body is, and is being fueled, lately. no tricking yourself!

  8. Sounds like you're doing well! Keep fighting, girly!

  9. You and your running amaze me! I am still trying to build up my endurance, but it's still not where I wish it would be.

    I am glad to hear you are trying to keep up the nutrition to compensate for how active you are. I know it's hard sometimes, but so very important. ;)

    I hope things with your mom can continue to heal and you are able to continue that journey (remember, to take care of yourself with boundaries if you need to)

    I am happy to hear you are doing well, and things are good! Keep on moving forward and fighting for recovery, health, balance, and life!

  10. So glad you're doing well in all areas of your life! Keep at it, it keeps getting better! PS you are SO speedy!

  11. You do NOT need to lose any weight. You are performing at your best right where you are. Keep eating intuitively. what you want, when you want. You are SO active... you shouldn't have to dwell on food choices so much. I know full-heartedly that that is all easier to say than to believe though. But work on it because you're doing so breath takenly amazing right at the weight you are at. And I might add that you look absolutely gorgeous right now. RIGHT NOW. How you are. You are so much more than that whole struggle. Celebrate your greatness. There is so much about you to be proud of! :)

  12. can you just come back....I miss you. :)

  13. Harley love <3 I have been thinking about you! Im so happy for you that you are in a good place at the moment!
    Connor sounds like the best boyfriend ever, the two of you truly deserve each other!
    And it makes me so happy that you are in a good place with foods! Keep eating intuitively, your body will be so thankful! Im working on it too, and I find it is a lot of work! But it will be worth it :)
    Love you <3

  14. You are a wonderful example for your mom and knowing that you are there to be supportive and know she has the power to overcome her addiction is enough to inspire her and keep her strong. I am very close to my mom and I also hear people (as well as get vibes) that I should break away from my mom. Your situation is much different of course, but I think just being there and supporting is so essential. It shows your loving character

    xoxo <3

  15. Sounds like you're doing great lady!! Keep up the great work and attitude!!

  16. Oh my gosh Connor's post was adorable. Oh my gosh I can only imagine how beautiful your children would be! I'm so glad you're doing well right now. Stay close with your Mom for as long as you can.. she needs it as much as you do. My grandma just relapsed after over a year sober. It can be so hard and stressful to stay by her side, but I know that she has no one else and we can't just leave her. You're so strong! Keep that up :)

  17. Haley <3 Hope everything is fine with you!!

  18. Long time since you've written. I hope all is going well with school and running!


  19. Haleyyyyyy!!!!! sorry it's been a while since i came here and read last time.
    but it seems like it's been gorgeous for you!!
    this blog just made me so happy and filled me with full of love <3
    and i read conner's blog too which you referred here :) great stuff!!
    im thinking of you even if i don't come here much like i used to....
    my teams here keep me busy, much busier than i was at Miss St.!
    i lost my life
    but i will hopefully be able to come to some of the xc meets this fall and some track meets in the spring.
    ahh im so happy that you're doing good Haley! and glad to know that you're happy :) that makes a lot people happy, including me :)

    Go Haley Go Haley Go!!
    hope to see you soon <3

    Megumi :)