Monday, March 19, 2012

Single and doing alright

Sooo, I've been single for 7 days now..

If you read my last post, then you know that I was already having some relationship issues..
I posted last right after Connor and I decided to 'take a break'..
He had walked right past me in the gym without any acknowledgement, and it hurt so bad.. 
But we made up a couple days later.. He tried to convince me he wasn't good for me, but I convinced him we could make it work..
This time I let him go.

Sunday night I realized that I need to be with someone who wants to be with me, all of me. I want someone who loves me for all that I am, not in spite of who I am..

I do love Connor, and I will always have a place for him in my heart.. But maybe this will be a good thing. Maybe now I will learn even more about myself and grow individually as a person.

Then again, I may always wonder if I will find someone as good to me as my first love..
He was my everything, and most importantly he was my best friend.

It is going to be hard and different now that I'm back to school and back to the reality of being in Starkville without my boyfriend of 2 and half years. It will take some adjustment.

However, I know now that I can't make someone love me    X    amount.. And I can't be the hand that holds on so tightly while the hand holding mine is letting go.. 

Now is the time when I find out what I'm really made of.. I don't want to be that girl whose world falls apart because of a break up. I don't want to be the girl who develops ED because her mom relapsed..
I am in control now, and I know I have great things ahead of me.

<3 Haley


  1. It is good to see the strength in your words. You have come a long way. I hope you are doing well! Keep it up!

  2. Yes Haley that is such a great attitude and mind set. Beautiful and honest post. Know that I'm here and so many others for when you're havinga hard time. xoxo

  3. Love you Haley. Sending tons of strength and positivity your way during this rough time. Much love, Liz.

    p.s...I'm blogging again! =]

  4. I am so proud of you, Haley. <3 If you ever want to talk, you know where to find me! I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  5. I'm sorry to hear about your breakup but I think you are so strong to take such a positive perspective on it.

  6. I know I haven't commented a whole lot, but I just want you to know that I am here for you if I can ever do anything. I am so sorry ou are having to go through this breakup, but know that it will be for the best.