I looked down in class today and realized that I can't see the veins on my arms anymore.. not like I used to, anyway. For some reason it really affected me :/
I know that's stupid, but I just miss feeling thin. I feel so fat. And I hate it.
I want to diet to lose weight, but every time I try I end up binging. So I guess that's not the way to go. It's just so hard to accept myself right now.
Sorry this is so depressed sounding.. I'm really not doing all that bad. I just wish I felt comfortable in this body. I wish I didn't wonder what others were thinking when they notice the weight gain. They probably think I'm so out of control. That's how I feel, anyway.
Okay, next post will be happier, promise.