|I'm in the white top, maroon shorts in fourth place in this picture. This looks like it was taken around the first couple laps cuz everyone is still together. *I love that my teammates are picture crazy!* ;)|
But if this is what recovery weighs, looks like, whatever, then fine. I want it. I'd much rather have a life and friends and a family than be super skinny, worrying over fat content and how many calories I'm burning, etc.. for the rest of my life.
it's a freakin looooong race to the finish line, *25 laps in this case :P*. In terms of ED, I'm not quite at the finish line yet. But I do know that I am closer now than I've ever been, and I'm going to give it all I have to make it there because I know what it's like to feel that pride and love for yourself over all that you've accomplished once you do take finish those final steps. No, it's not egotistical. It is well deserved. I tend to be too hard on myself, and this doesn't help my recovery in the least bit. Now, though, I am finally starting to acknowledge all that I have done so far, and it makes me that much more excited to see what the future has in store for me. Finishing a 10k, and even tougher, conquering an eating disorder, are tough things to overcome. If I can do these things, I can do anything.
|Finally took a picture with Conrad today. He's my rock, my love, my everything. <3|
Thank you to all of you who have supported me by commenting or reading or praying.. I seriously have a spot in my heart for each and every one of you. I know I always say it, but words cannot express how tremendously encouraging and inspirational you all have been to me these past six months.
I send so much love, soso much love, to all of you.
P.s. If this is choppy and has tons of grammatical errors, I'm sorry.. I'm pretty tired from the race and just feel like passing out, but even more than that I felt like expressing my love and happiness with all of you :)